could He be sending me back in?
Several years ago I was at a women’s conference in North Carolina singing with Rita Springer. Once worship was finished, I went to sit in the back of the church. The lady who was teaching began talking about prophecy and prophetic words, and I couldn’t help but scoff a bit under my breath. Over my brief 8 years as a Christian, I have received many a “prophetic word”. Yes, there’s a reason I put that in quotes. ☺
Most of the words I’ve received have been about music…recording an album, writing songs that reach millions, music being on the radio…that type of thing. I didn’t know anything about prophecy, but I thought that seemed a little obvious since I was the girl singing and playing piano on the platform. Looking back, I think I wanted confirmation that the Lord really noticed me, but my prophetic words seemed to only reassure me that the “prophet” noticed me.
Anyway, as I continued listening to the teaching, I was intrigued. She began to do an exercise on how to prophecy. As she was explaining it, she decided it would be best to DO it rather than just talk about it.
“I’ll try it out on you!” she says, as she points toward the back of the room at ME. Before I had a chance to run or crawl under my chair (I thought about doing both), she was standing next to me with her hand on my shoulder. For a minute she just stood there with her eyes closed, and I braced myself.
“The Lord showed me you’re in an arena. Bright lights. Someone is dancing. You are singing, but there aren’t any lights on you. Then, the Lord sweeps in and picks you up and sets you in a room. He violently begins to remove everything in the room until it’s completely white. You are in a white dress, and there’s this beautiful sense of LIFE and freedom in the room. Then, the Lord sweeps in again and returns you to the arena, and you’re telling everyone about the Man who rescued you. Hear what the Lord says: My daughter, I saved you so you can save others. I will send you back in and make you a voice. Pray for celebrities. Save those whom I love. Save the celebrities.”
That was almost 5 years ago, and I haven’t thought much about that day. I have several cards that are covered with the names of celebrities and I pray for them regularly but other than that, it’s not something I think about often.
Then last night I had a very vivid dream. I was standing in my kitchen, and a nice old man came in the front door. I wasn’t scared or startled. He felt familiar. He sat down at my kitchen table and asked me to come sit down. He took my hand and said, “Dear, I’m sending you back in.” He nodded and I smiled as if I knew exactly what he was talking about. Then he left. That was it.
The funny thing is I’m pretty sure I was never “in”. (whatever that means) Over a decade later, the only steady, solid, unchanging, faithful thing I know is Jesus, and wherever He sends me, I’ll go.
Pray, friends. 
the ones He loves...
Intense. But good, very good. I’m prayin’ for ya in this, whatever it pans out like
wow- thats just- wow! The Lord is amazing. praying for you!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow…incredible. I’ll be praying wisdom for you and Matt!
God is Good – All the time! A lot of Hollywood needs our prayers. I will also remember them in prayer! Thank you for sharing this.
You probably already know this, but the old man in your dreams represents God. Everything else in the dream seems pretty obvious.
I’ve been prophesied over several times, and it’s not something I scoff at. Just about every single one has been right on and accurate. Some of them are still coming to pass and they are amazing, and still blow my mind. It may take only days, to years for prophesies to take be fulfilled, but if it’s from God it will happen. I’ve taken to writing mine down and keeping a journal of them. I pray over them and remind myself and God what He has told me. That word sounds like it was really from God, so just be prepared!
God has great things in store for you; just ask Him to prepare you for it. God bless, sister! Keep up the good Kingdom work! <3
I have printed out the picture of the celebrities and plan on praying along with you for them. That God will lead you to accomplish great things for Him.
I don’t know if I have ever really thought about praying for the celebrities, but you are so dead on with ‘the ones he loves’! Wow, thanks.
I never told you this because I wasn’t sure if you would believe me or not. It also felt so personal and such a “God thing” that I felt someone else would not really understand. But, the night before I met you (via internet) I had this overwhelming sense to pray for Brittany Spears. I actually was crying and my heart went out to her so much. I repented as well for not really praying for her before. I do not stay up on current events so I don’t even know what is going on with the celebrity world. But, my heart was literally breaking for this girl that I didn’t even know and I hadn’t looked up anything about her in years. The next morning as I checked my facebook, an article came up on my homepage. The article was yours about you returning to the abortion clinic. I went to your blog and saw that you used to sing with Brittany Spears. I was speechless. It was almost like God was leading me to you. There may be more to it…now that I am reading this, it could even be confirmation for you. I will let God reveal in time, but after reading this post, I just felt I needed to finally share that with you.
My heart also broke with you while reading about the baby boy. I cried along with you. I am also an adoptive parent and I honestly felt your pain when you found out she chose someone else. I am also grateful she chose life and God used you to make this happen. You had such an impact in her life and she will always remember you. You know what, though? You are prepariing for rain (from the movie, Facing the Giants). Now you know what to do. You can finish the homestudy and be completely ready for the day that is coming SOON!